mid-life: escaping resentment loading

I just made up that term, resentment loading. Let me capitalize it to make it official-sounding: Resentment Loading. It’s one of the traps of mid-life. Like cynicism is a trap. By resentment loading I mean … just that. Loading up my wagon with resentments. Towards people, groups, God. Whatever. We’re more teenagery than maybe we […]

mid-life, a loss of milestones

Earlier in life, milestones were everywhere. Each grade. Elementary school. Junior high. High school. Camps. Summers. School years. College. Freshman, Sophomore, Junior, Senior. Graduation. Graduate school. First job. Engagement. Marriage. Children. And life now is kind of a blur of my children’s milestones. Forty was a milestone. Stopping breastfeeding (after 12 straight years) was a […]

middle-age, neither the beginning nor end is in sight

I’ve been thinking off and on about why I don’t blog so much any more. I think it’s because I’m done processing my births, my childrearing philosophy/principles, and honestly, I feel like a broken record talking about my midlife feelings, so I mostly keep that to myself. I’m in the long middle of my journey. […]

Pt. 2, about controversial things

So, I just wrote about controversial things, and a friend commented: Please write more especially on the relation to the overlap of courage, fear, wisdom, and dying to self with that “non-person” phenomenon. I will explain my own progression in these areas and include insights from my husband that helped me along the way. (It […]

about controversial things

My mom is probably cringing. Honestly, I am cringing, a bit. Have you ever analyzed your own progression as a person with opinions? I think about this, I guess as I get older and make more defining life/parenting/schooling/health choices, how I hold those opinions begins to define me, maybe more than the opinions themselves. Weirdly. […]