mid-life, a loss of milestones

Earlier in life, milestones were everywhere. Each grade. Elementary school. Junior high. High school. Camps. Summers. School years. College. Freshman, Sophomore, Junior, Senior. Graduation. Graduate school. First job. Engagement. Marriage. Children. And life now is kind of a blur of my children’s milestones. Forty was a milestone. Stopping breastfeeding (after 12 straight years) was a […]

middle-age, neither the beginning nor end is in sight

I’ve been thinking off and on about why I don’t blog so much any more. I think it’s because I’m done processing my births, my childrearing philosophy/principles, and honestly, I feel like a broken record talking about my midlife feelings, so I mostly keep that to myself. I’m in the long middle of my journey. […]

Pt. 2, about controversial things

So, I just wrote about controversial things, and a friend commented: Please write more especially on the relation to the overlap of courage, fear, wisdom, and dying to self with that “non-person” phenomenon. I will explain my own progression in these areas and include insights from my husband that helped me along the way. (It […]

about controversial things

My mom is probably cringing. Honestly, I am cringing, a bit. Have you ever analyzed your own progression as a person with opinions? I think about this, I guess as I get older and make more defining life/parenting/schooling/health choices, how I hold those opinions begins to define me, maybe more than the opinions themselves. Weirdly. […]

worship: God, you’re worth it!

I love illustrating abstract words, making it into something concrete we can see and feel and do. It’s something I remember wrestling with in my teenage brain. What exactly IS righteousness? What IS justice? Now, in an adult brain and with so much more life experience to draw from, it’s easier to illustrate abstract words. Like “worship.” One […]

building muscle, and some pretty things

One thing I’m starting to enjoy on a deep level is flour grinding. There’s something so ancient and elemental about it. I’m starting the Curves diet again. I’ve lost muscle and gained fat the last two years because I haven’t followed their maintenance plan. Life has been stressful, so I’ve been debating which is more […]

dom, molitva, i virazhenya Boga

Дом, молитва, и выражение Бога Бог открыл Себе ко мне сегодня по новому. Сколько Он любит это делать! Он либит и хочет чтоб я каждый день увидела Его во всем. У меня дневник молитвы, и сегодня две страницы были особенные. Я реглярно молюсь через 31ую Притчу. Сегодня, стих для молитвы был: “Дайте ей от плода […]